Friday, November 13, 2009

~ I will Praise You in this Storm ~

I am 13 weeks pregnant.

Yesterday I was elated to see TWO beautiful babies on the ultrasound screen.
It has been my hearts desire to have twins for as long as I can remember. I secretly have hoped each and every time that I have been expecting that just maybe there might be two little ones nestled together in my womb.

As I laid on the bed and stared in wonder, I felt that my greatest desire had been fulfilled. I left there in awe and amazement. I literally floated all afternoon and into the evening. When I called Tradesman, he got all choked up. After he ended his call with me he went out to the driveway of the customers house that he was at and dropped to his knees right there beside his van praising God for His gift to us, for His sovereignty and His goodness.

Last night we whispered and laughed, prayed and dreamed about all that was to come.

Today we received a call.
Our babies had died. A heartbeat could not be found on either of our babies.

We are bewildered, broken but not without hope. I will be going in for another ultrasound on Monday.
Two days to pray, trust and hope for a miracle.

He is still God and He is still on the throne.

We will praise Him if our babies are alive and well. We will praise Him if our babies are truly gone.

Please pray with us this weekend.

If you could leave a comment letting me know you are praying, I would find great encouragement in that over the weekend.

Love,


25 comments:

Angelica Bays, TygrLilies.com said...

Ohhh...my dear...Hugging you tight, sister- not understanding, and yet still trusting. Thank you for being so brave and sharing.
Praying hard for all of you-
-Angelica

Penny Lane said...

I will surely pray for you. I am so sorry you two are in the midst of this storm. I pray you feel the Lord's arms wrapped around you with each step and that His will be done.

Anonymous said...

But as for me, I will hope continually and will praise Thee yet more and more...Thou who hast shown me many troubles and distresses will revive me again, and will bring me up again from the depths of the earth. from Psalm 71

I will keep you in my heart and prayers this weekend. I understand your hope and your disappointment...Mary W

Michelle said...

Praying!!!!! May you find peace in this storm.
God Bless.
Michelle

Theresa said...

I'm a friend of Angelica's - she shared your blog with us. Praying that all will be well. God is still in the business of miracles, comfort & hope. I will be praying for you. - Theresa H.

Robin Saylor said...

oh Sherry - praying right now.
can i bring you a meal? anything?
praying for peace at this time and hope for the future.

Anonymous said...

I will be praying. May the God of all peace and comfort be with you.

Jenny Sandiford
Above Rubies Listmate

Paula said...

Of course you are in the center of our prayers, and we will be fervently interceding on behalf of your little ones and for you and Len and your other precious children! We will believe that His hand holds all your hearts, beating or still. May His breath of life touch you all. May you see His miracle working hand at work in you. Your wee ones are not alone, they have eachother, and surely He holds them both.
Love you SO MUCH!!
Psalm 139
For the director of music. Of David. A psalm.
1 O LORD, you have searched me
and you know me.

2 You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.

3 You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.

4 Before a word is on my tongue
you know it completely, O LORD.

5 You hem me in—behind and before;
you have laid your hand upon me.

6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.

7 Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?

8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, [a] you are there.

9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,

10 even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.

11 If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,"

12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.

13 For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother's womb.

14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.

15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place.
When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,

16 your eyes saw my unformed body.
All the days ordained for me
were written in your book
before one of them came to be.

17 How precious to [b] me are your thoughts, O God!
How vast is the sum of them!

18 Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand.
When I awake,
I am still with you.

19 If only you would slay the wicked, O God!
Away from me, you bloodthirsty men!

20 They speak of you with evil intent;
your adversaries misuse your name.

21 Do I not hate those who hate you, O LORD,
and abhor those who rise up against you?

22 I have nothing but hatred for them;
I count them my enemies.

23 Search me, O God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.

24 See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.

jlgoinggreen said...

Agreeing in prayer with you. May the Lord give you peace through this.

Blessings,
JEN

shell-bear said...

When we are weak, then HE is strong.
God has a purpose and a plan for everything.
Praying sherry. Trust in Him.
We're praying for you and the family.

homeschool mommyof3 said...

You are being uplifted in prayers as I type this. God works such powerful miracles when we just have the faith that HE can. No matter what happens, know that God is with you. Much Much love. HE will never leave you...

Mrs. Teasley said...

Praying for you all. God is great, and His will is sovereign. May His blessings, peace, and grace be with you.

jenny said...

praying...

Anonymous said...

I will be praying diligently for your babies, and for your peace.

-mamaclsn

Melody said...

I know the joy of having twins, as I have 2 beautiful little girls. I also know the pain of losing a baby in the womb. one at 15 weeks and one at 23 weeks. I know in all circumstances God is most glorified in us when we are most satisfied in him. I will pray for the miracle of life, and I will pray for grace in all events.

Because He lives
Melody

Michelle W. said...

I'm not sure who you are. I saw the link to your blog on a friend's FB page. I have also experiences 3 miscarriages. I too have known the joy then sorrow that comes with finding out we were pregnant w/ twins combined with the news that we were not going to be carrying them to term. First, I will pray that your babies are still alive & well in your womb. But if that is not the way God chooses, I will pray that He carries you through the pain & grief. And please let me encourage you. Just 3 months after losing our first set of twins, God blessed us with another set of identical twins. They were born perfectly healthy at 37 wks & 1 day, which is what we prayed for (no prematurity). God knows your heart. He knows your yearnings. Seek Him first, and all these things shall be added unto you. That is how I got through it nearly 13 yrs ago. Blessings on your family & on your womb!

Merechel said...

I will be praying!

Sonya Manson said...

"I will not leave you comfortless: I will come to you." -John 14:18

"God you are our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble." -Psalm 46:1

Praying for you and you little ones.

Anonymous said...

I don't know you Sister but I wanted to let you know that I am praying for you and your precious babies right now!

Anonymous said...

Absolutely praying for you all.

I love you.

J

Melissa said...

I am praying for your family. I saw in the Above Rubies group that you asked if someone had ever experienced this and the baby was actually alive. There is an article on the Above Rubies website by a woman who went through this and her baby was alive. Her body never gave signs of miscarrying but they said they couldn't find a heartbeat. She waited and gave birth to a healthy baby girl. We will be praying for you and your little ones.

Cheryl @ On the Old Path said...

Hi I am praying for you and your family. I am praying for a miracle and that you feel His peace, love and closeness at this time.

Erin said...

Oh Sher! I can't believe it. I know how deeply you have desired those twins for years. My heart is breaking for you and Len. Know that our whole family is praying for you, for Len, for the kids and the babies as well. Our Father has knit them together. I'm asking him not to drop a single stitch.
Loads of love to you all...

Dawnelle said...

oh, sherry, I am so, so sad to read this, and of course I will pray for you and for the babies.

Mrs. Teasley said...

Please keep us updated.

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